Wish

I wish I was more 

That I could be someone 

That is happy and easy

Not this empty shell of a core

Broken and battered

I face this life of unease

My thoughts and feelings

in the wind scattered

I am meaningless words

I wish I was more

A thing I can see

 But everything’s blurry

I’m am the left behind

I wish I was more

Of the goodness in the world

Of sunshine

I am less then I should be

I am to much

Always in the wrong way

I wish I was more

Less hollow

Less of a lush

Lost

In a dark landscape 

And there is nothing I can say

I wish there was more