i am

Remember all the fire 

Remember all the need 

Where did it go dying on the vine of inequities.

I want heat and desire

 I want to be the destroyer 

I am unwanted 

I am nothing more then a pretty picture of an example 

I am unfulfilled promise

Negotiations gone wrong

Pent up desire and hate

Longing for more then I am

I want to be disheveled 

Messy and disturbing 

I want bold and dirty 

Complicate me

Fill me to the brim 

Let’s take it to the edge, teetering 

I am a scratch you can’t reach

A breath you can’t take.

 I am pain and love fitting like a glove on your hand.

I am sad for loss I can’t explain 

For a need I can’t express.

I am all things and nothing.

I am slowly dying.

I see you

I see you.

Even if your words disappear 

I see you

 I know that pain I feel the depth the darkness.

I walk and breathe it in 

I soak it in my skin.

My darkness hides in me and then creeps out when I’m most unaware gutting me from the inside out, soaking me in emotional vomit and blood.

I see you.

The darkness like a room with no windows while I edge along the sides.. till I tire of trying to find the door.

Till I give in and wallow in it. 

I live in it becoming a second skin my constant companion.

My darkness my soul black and decaying. My strength and weakness.

I see you . 

The bitter truth in all the pain endless

Loneliness like a blanket isolating me

I see you I see me