Nope

I would touch you if I could

Instead I write these words

All my feelings bare

Hoping to touch your soul

My sentiments scratched on paper 

My heart showing every tear

That it would be whole

That I could etch my desire on your skin

Trace my thoughts on your palm

Assault you with these letters

So we know where to begin

You would know my need

Let go of your indifference and calm

Taste my words 

Instead of me

Unknown

I am nobody

I am nothing 

I am alone

Surrounded by friends 

I would share me

But no one understands 

I am the dark corner 

I am scary thoughts

I am on the edge

I am Suicide

I am murder

I would share me

But no one understands

I am heavy thoughts

Hidden by a smile

I am secret pain

Longing for rest

I am unnoticed 

I am unknown 

I would share me

But who would understand

Could’ve stayed

Last night

 I didn’t leave because you told me to go

 I could’ve stayed and that would’ve been Okay

I think you wanted me there

 you were drunk and vulnerable 

 it would’ve been the wrong way

hands in my pockets keeping me from touching

the hugs were too common

This moment of belonging 

Our bodies pressed so tight

I was going to kiss you 

I needed to leave, not because you said to go

I could have stayed and that would have been okay 

you stare at me with intensity, tears sliding down your face 

I wanna hold that hurt from you

 kiss away the blame 

needing to reach out 

 I would be taking advantage

I know I could’ve stayed in that would’ve been Okay

maybe I’m misreading things

Confused not sure what’s about

you told me that you love me

you apologize for being one-sided 

I ran my hands through your hair

Your close, I’m fighting this urge

so I put my hands in my pockets 

 I didn’t leave because you told me to go

 I could’ve stayed in that would’ve been Okay

Would I have been a regret

You hold many regrets of other times

Should I just forget

when the hugs are coming common 

With my face pressed to your neck 

I’m holding back kisses 

something more than just your friend

Your in the drink, it’s the wong way

Fear of rejection wins in the end 

I didn’t leave because you told me to go

I could have stayed and that would have been Okay.

Air

Up here in the stratosphere 

I'm thinking about you

My mind fills with all the possibilities 

I live the daydream 

Wishing all our feelings were clear

I would hold you so close

Whisper my thoughts

But I'm in the air

So far from where you are

Living these separate lives

So I have my mind 

To create these fantasies 

Intensity

Sometimes you look at me 

With this intensity 

My breath catches

My seat is wet

I want to break eye contact

Yet I cant

At any moment I might reach

Drag you across the table

It would be fierce 

It would be dynamic 

Wrong or right

Would it matter

As your piercing eyes impale me

I want to be near you

Bring me close

Breath into me

You look away with a smile 

You know

Temple

My body is not a temple

 It is a rundown shack

Your presence defiling

Lost in time

This is no pleasure Palace.

More like a dungeon of pain

Where your Wicked Ways reign

I am but a peasant 

Of little consequence

You and your lordly needs

Come first always

A servant I am

 In my broken shack

You visit when you desire 

Pretending you like the decor

Leaving as fast as you came

In this haunted place.