Shame

This feeling inside

Wrenching and twisting me

Shame and guilt

I can not hide 

Eating my soul

For feelings I can’t control 

Your laugh is infectious 

Giving me rays of joy

It echoes in the mountains of my mind

I’m a creep, lurking behind 

Just to see that smile

Radiate on my darkness

Rental space occupied in my heart

Shame for how you feel

It’s not mine I just can’t end 

Guilt for making you uncomfortable 

Shame for a heart I can’t defend 

For love that I would steal 

make it go this overwhelming 

I’m tilted and unstable 

Filled with shame

This heart is Condescending

I have all the words of sorry

I am the one to hold the blame

your name

Written on my heart in sharpie

Covered in disgust 

For the way I made it awkward 

Losing all our trust

So now it’s all backward

For my shameful heart